We all want to feel special. We want to feel like we have something GRAND to present to this world, that our being alive has a purpose. But to be honest, most of us are just average. I am here to tell you that is OK. Average is a fine thing to be. Living your daily life, one day at a time, is a good thing.
It has been a long time since I have written or even looked at this site. I was reading my past blog posts, I had so much to say. I was all over the place. I was losing my mind! Now here I am, 8 years later, trying to pull myself together after having a bad day, bad week, bad month. Covid-19 has upset the apple cart. The menopause process has stirred the pot. On the top that, I am watching my last cat go through the dying process.
In 2012 I would have a lot to say about all that, but today I feel quiet inside. I don’t feel the need to rant to God. Through meditation; God, Buddha and I had some quiet time this morning. They helped straighten out my thought patterns. They calmed my mind and helped me to form a beginning plan to start moving forward again. I have been quietly waiting for others to give me purpose, to make me special….to see me as special. This desire to be seen as special has given me a lot of pain and frustration. The truth is, though the majority of us are average, every damn one of us is special. Every one of us; man, woman, animal or plant, adds to the fabric of this universe. We just need to see that in ourselves and not wait for others to point it out in us. We need to find our own special thing and make it real for ourselves, just ourselves. Once we do that we change ourselves and the fabric of the universe. It doesn’t matter if anyone else knows as long as we know.
And so continues My Pseudo-legendary Life.